Come Home to Yourself

It's time to change the narrative.

Fuck the please unblock me.

Fuck the we can talk this out.

No one is worth you sacrificing your most authentic self.

No one is worth you twisting yourself to meet their needs - especially when they don’t even know what they want.

No one is worth you becoming someone who competes with other people because they’re choosing to spread their energy around.

No one is deserving of your entire heart just laid into their hands.

Take your power back.

And don’t let anyone even try to convince you that you’re insane, crazy or their definition of psycho.

You’re not insane for wanting to love deeply. You just had to learn that love doesn’t mean jumping off a cliff and expecting the other person to catch you...

Loving someone has to start with loving ourselves. But to love ourselves with all our imperfections and mistakes is something that also needs to be learned with patience.

Part of loving me is accepting a relationship is over the moment it ends. It is over and it’s over because it needs to be over. Because it better serves me or them for it to be over - no reason is needed other than that.

I stand strong in my knowing that if a relationship isn’t serving me, then it just simply can’t be serving both of us. With this perspective, letting go of someone is loving them - and it’s also loving you. The same can be seen if this were vice versa as well.

And here’s the real kicker: Even if your old patterns trick you into believing it’s a good idea to hold out hope that you and that person will be able to “work it out.” If it’s over what “it” is there to “work out.” The point is, if you never let that version of your relationship with that person die, then you can never have a new beginning.

I finally woke up and came to the realization that I had spent months giving parts of myself away to another person while convincing myself I was doing the opposite. I began to attempt to find myself by the water near my house. I chose a spot I normally frequented for comfort. While sitting there watching the sun and the birds fly by, I started to feel a sense of peace and decided to inquire about the symbolism and spirituality of the birds I always see there. I found that Gulls are said to never hesitate to make their opinion known because they have been observed to be very vocal birds. They symbolize speaking your truth and remaining fearless in your stance to assert that truth - for that is your power. So like a Gull, I’ll stand tall in my truth of love and take my power back today.

What does it matter if someone can smother me with affection and compassion if I can’t do the same for myself?

What does it matter if someone can open up and be completely vulnerable with me if I can’t do the same with myself?

What does it matter if someone can have patience with me as I heal if I can’t do the same with myself?

What does it matter if I can smother someone with affection and compassion if I can’t do the same for myself?

What does it matter if I can open up and be completely vulnerable with someone if I can’t do the same with myself?

What does it matter if I can have patience with someone as they heal if I can’t do the same with myself?

And no matter how it ended, the same is true: I can't worry about anyone else's opinion of me when I have the opinion I have of myself to worry about...

Come Home to Yourself - today and every day from here on out.

Gull article: https://whatismyspiritanimal.com/spirit-totem-power-animal-meanings/birds/herring-gull-seagull-symbolism-meaning/#:~:text=Gull%20reminds%20you%20of%20your,Birds%20emblems%20of%20driving%20passion!